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Tuesday, February 10, 2009

Fenny Chronicles - Why have a pet?

We must all ask ourselves this before we get a pet. Everyone who lives in an illusion thinking bringing up a pet is easy, welcome to reality. I am now a self proclaimed expert on pets from ants, fishes, snails, bugs to dogs.

Remember that you will definitely out live your pet, so be ready for an emotional rollercoaster. Anyone who thinks they’ll get a pet and yet be detached is fooling himself or is someone who just lost his heart to Satan.

This blog is inspired by a very recent incident which confirmed my reasons for wanting a pet. When I was 17, I wanted a pet because I thought I needed to have someone who would help me understand myself better. Someone that I could tell about everything in my mind not worrying that there was any possibility of it ever falling on anyone else’s ears. Someone who wouldn’t judge me and be glad to know me and be in my company. Well I got what I wanted- a little black Labrador puppy.
Day one was a nightmare. She came home on April 1st and she was to stay in my room. All was going fine till it started raining followed by thunder. Now, she had just left her mom, come to a new environment, everyone around her was cooing and then suddenly thunder and rains. That was Fenny’s first ever encounter with rain. She was so insecure she peed all over my room (I almost resolved to keep her off water for a week, where did a small thing like her store all that pee?) I couldn’t sleep nor would she sleep. I woke everyone at home and we decided to take turns in calming her down. Day one was hellish. Day two didn’t seem too promising either. Potty and pee are clearly not a welcoming sight first thing in the morning. She was like this little bomb, the moment we saw her flicker her eyelids after a nap we’d pick her and put her in the garden and she’d do her job and then run back in. It took her a while to realize that if there was no one to put her out she could run out herself instead of messing the house.
It was decided that she would be a house dog and she would have minimum contact with strangers. Fenny thought I was her mommy and she followed me everywhere and as was expected she fulfilled all my reasons for wanting a pet. But just when I was enjoying my new found joy, she fell ill. It was a very traumatic period for all at home. She got so sick that she could not take any food or liquids. She had to be put on drips and had to take 17 injections in the first 50 days of her life. When she was sick all I could think was wanting to help her feel better. This whole thing about me expressing myself vocally to her and her not being able to tell me where she pained or what she wanted was torture. I was scared that whatever I did was worsening her condition, this went to the extent of me isolating myself from her for a day because I felt helpless. But she wouldn’t let me stay away, she came to me and got on my lap and slept for over 6 hours. That was the longest duration she had slept since she came home. From then on she decided that she would lie on my lap only and I obliged. The feeling of finally being able to help her was not just overwhelming but scary too. From there on she got better and we have had the most amazing time since.
It hasn’t always been hunky dory; we have had ups and downs. The next hurdle was teaching her to behave on the road while I took her for walks. We began with a slow jog and as she grew bigger and stronger she would run faster and within 5 mins I’d be breathless trying to keep pace with her and at the same time holding on to the leash with dear life. Just when we struck up a decent routine, we decided to move. A new house, a new area,totally unexplored vastness filled with varied aroma of all the dogs in our colony could only spell one word for Fenny--> A.D.V.E.N.T.U.R.E

Here I will admit to her being a little frightening and overly possessive about her territory and yes, if she were human she’d manage to be the nicest rowdy about town. One very sunny day a lazy mongrel was walking by our gate, before I realized it Fenny flashed out of the gate, after her me and after me my dad. It must have been a sight. I was screeching for Fenny to stop and my dad was screeching for the both of us to stop. We all did stop when the mongrel was cornered by Fenny completely trembling from nose to paw with his tail between his legs completely resigned to its fate, my dad and I intently watching fearing any movement would accelerate the tension into a fight. Just when the whole waiting bit was getting too unbearable Fenny turned around walked to me licked my hand allowed me to put the leash on and we were on our way back home safe without a scratch. I ran after Fenny fearing she would be hurt, but then during our wait anticipating a move from either dogs I really felt sorry for the mongrel. All the way back home I kept admonishing her for her reckless behavior at the same time being extremely proud of her which she clearly felt in my tone of voice. I guess that is why my “scolding” didn’t have the desired effect.
The same week my mom and I were walking her and I wasn’t holding the leash tightly because she was behaving. Right in front of us came three strays. As was expected Fenny gave them a chase and in the process she had my feet tangled in the leash which resulted in a major fall and then getting up by which time Fenny was really close to the dogs and to my horror, there was one frothing at the mouth and was very unsteady on its legs and was slowly inching towards Fenny. Fenny stood still keeping all three adversaries in view and started moving back wards, but she still had her tail up and hackles raised, she came and stood right next to my mom and me at the same time we pelted stones at the dogs and the rabid one pounced forward when a man intervened and shooed it with a whack.
We walked back home, Fenny clearly prepared for my “scolding”, but this time I wasn’t proud of her, I was angry about the way she behaved and worse than that, the minutes in which I thought the rabid dog would attack her some of the most terrible thoughts crossed my mind, the numerous what ifs? messed my head real bad. The moment we got back home I whacked Fenny one tight whack with the news paper. The moment I did that I regretted and hated myself. How could I allow myself to hit her? She looked more shocked, than hurt. She was surprised that I had hit her. I went to my room and cried because I was ashamed of having hit her, because I never thought I would hit her. The very idea had never crossed my mind, speak sternly to her may be but to hit her. Gosh it made me feel like an ogre. She came running to me and amidst a very droolish apology from Fenny I apologized to her and we were back to being best friends and the whole episode was forgotten.

Friday, November 28, 2008

Stupido

Stupido was such a lovely puppy. She and Fenny struck up a friendship, something I had never expected out of my girl. But Fenny has shown me several things that she is capable of doing, one such thing is to go make friends with strays who she thinks my dad and I will approve of. So Stupido became a common visitor near the gate when we took Fenny for a walk. When Fenny would return home from the walk she would run straight inside for some biscuits and milk/water/mango juice (she is totally pampered) and Stupido would wait outside and she would get her share as well. There are several instances when Stupido tried to get me to pet her, but I wouldn’t because my mom has banned me from petting strays every time I see one. Stupido would follow my mom and me as well when we would go for our walk. She was such silly pup, half the time we would be worried that some big dog would come and attack her. Thanks to her I had to carry pebbles in my pockets to shoo the bigger dogs away. So Stupido started looking up to me as her protector, something I wish she hadn’t done. So 4 months into this routine, I started using a special whistle for Stupido because if I used the one I used for Fenny, Fenny would probably get jealous. So one day when I whistled, Stupido came running straight at me. Stupido had an exceptionally long tail which would spin and go whoosh-whoosh and when she got super excited the tail would get confused not knowing which direction to spin in, so it would go clockwise half way and return anti clockwise. She came and licked my hand and so I pet her. I mean she had already licked my hand so I would have to wash my hand so why not pet her as well and then wash my hand. She was so happy that I pet her. Two days after that she just disappeared. 2 weeks later I saw her and she was in such terrible condition. The big dogs had gotten her. She was so badly bruised, the flesh on her leg was torn, there was huge gash on her back, she was just a small bag of bones. Seeing her like that made me hate the dogs that did that to her. That was probably the first time I ever voiced hatred towards the canine specie. That was the last time I saw her.

4 weeks back I saw a little dog follow my mom and me, instinctively I turned around and said, “Hey, Stupido.” But this wasn’t Stupido; it was tan colored dog, almost the same size as her, but not her. So I turned and decided not to look back at the mutt, it followed us for a while but then went its own way. The same weekend, I saw a lady on our street hitting a really tiny puppy. Initially I thought it was their puppy so I decided to mind my own business. But when the beatings continued and the pup kept crying, I just had to go and find out what was happening. Turned out the puppy was a stray and was “scaring” the aunty ji. I picked it up got it home, fed it, put it in a cardboard box and the chappie was christened CROCKERY, that was the label on the carton and thus the name. We tucked him in the box for the night. When we woke up in the morning, Crockery was gone. No amount of searching helped. In a way I guess it was good that he left, but on the other hand he is such a tiny guy, I wonder if he will survive. But then again these strays are survivors aren’t they? But even they could do with an occasional treat or pat on the head to know that they are wanted and are welcome in this world.

P.S: I never meant to blog about Stupido, as much as I loved her she has probably been my most favorite stray pup. When you see the pup all happy and fine around you, you don’t think beyond that. I never did. It was only on two occasions that I cried into my pillow thinking that I love Fenny so much. One: when I read Marley and Me and the second time after Stupido.

Monday, November 10, 2008

Fly Away Birdie


This is a picture of one of my birdie friends who was giving her young one a lesson in flying. The little thing was so petrified it remained on the hibiscus bush for more than an hour and we had to make sure no cat gets to it and meanwhile to pass time i started clicking phutos.












A frustrated mommy left her baby to make up its mind. The little one looks grumpy but two mins later it was flying.

Sunday, November 9, 2008

My Tenants

It all began when we moved to our home. It was brand new and so empty. We still had plenty to do for the insides of the house. I was in my 2nd sem when we moved here. Two months into living in our house I noticed a nest on our terrace and in it were 3 eggs .I used to constantly go and check the nest. One day I saw three little birdies craning their necks looking at me, they had their mouths open expecting food. They were smaller than my thumb. Their head was as big as the remainder of their body. I kept visiting them till one day they were gone. I thought ah well they had to leave some day. Then came my third sem, I had just started classes and as always during the odd semesters we are plagued by the rains which fall only when I’m on my way to the college or when I’m on my way back home, till then the rains hold out. On one such day I went to my room to find grass strewn all over my bed. The next day I found a trail of grass leading to the loft in my room. On climbing up there I saw one busy bird weaving furiously to make a tea cup size nest. I was pleased that they choose my room to build their house and I considered it a secret between me and the birds. So I did not tell my parents about the activities in my room. The couple used to start working early in the morning, and they went about their work noiselessly. After almost 2 months I could hear a chorus of chirping and I climbed up to see a brand new set of babies. I couldn’t keep this to myself and had to tell my mom about it. She gave me a lecture on how I have to remember we have Fenny at home who would probably attack the birds incase they got to close or were not on guard. Now that was a valid reason but the birds were to high up for Fenny to attack them so i didn't worry.

When summer came they built their nest out on the terrace and when it rained they were back in my room. After their second monsoon in my room they decided I was harmless. They used to fly closer to me, follow me when they weren’t busy with the nest. They knew they had a free reign in the house. I occupy the first floor. It’s got the room and the study. Initially the birds wouldn’t venture outside the room but they soon started flying around in the study as well. They used to sit on the monitor and watch me when I was doing my work or when I was just studying. I never shooed them, they probably thought I was the coolest human on the planet.

Once when I woke up I could see from the corner of my eye that the silly, stupid, sparrow was sitting on my pillow watching me closely, next to me was Fenny. Now I know Fenny is a sweetheart and she would do nobody any harm unless she knew they were a threat to us or her. So Fenny just stared at bird; bird stared back at Fenny, the next thing I know Fenny is back snoozing, now who would have thought she’d react like that!

This is my 9th sem and the birds have now taken over the whole of the first floor, now I don’t have one pair but two pairs of birds building their nests up stairs, one in my bathroom and the other in the study. They aren’t all that quiet any more. When I’m ironing my uniform in the morning they start bickering and no amount of shouting “shut-up” stops them from bickering. I think the women keep nagging their hubbie birds about “how nice their nest is”. But in the evenings when they are done for the day the couples take their positions on the bathroom and study room window sills respectively and glide away to lala land and alls quite till the sun comes up and I wake up to the screeching of my friendly tenants.

Tuesday, September 23, 2008

The Begining...

When I went to stay at my grand uncle's place for a week I was planning on having fun and generally lazing around reading his collection of comics. Once I got there I was welcomed with a ferocious bark and then felt something furry going around me in circles. I was trembling from head to toe and I didn't dare open my eyes. My grand Uncle tied Ruff and only after that I stopped shaking and went inside the house. I had my lunch and was reading a book in the hall, when my grand uncle decided that it was time Ruff and I became friends. He went out and freed Ruff who came bounding into the hall and made a bee line at me. I have never been that frightened ever, he came close sniffed me and then jumped straight at me and licked my face with his tail going whush-whush. Very hesitatingly I pet him on the head and he took it as an indication that I liked him and within minutes I was giving him a belly rub and he was chewing my toes and licking my face all over again. That moment on we became inseperable.Wherever I went I took him with me, I watched him eat drink and play I was still slightly scared of the fact that he was such a big dog. When he put his paws on my shoulder he was over a foot taller than me! But by the next day I was sure that he would do me no harm at all. Like all other dogs he also begged, when reprimanded he went to a corner and continued staring at the food till there was a visible pool of drool where he was sitting. He knew he'd gained an accomplice in me, he would sit right under my chair and I’d slyly drop him a few tid bits. When my grand uncle was cutting fruits he took a portion and mashed them and gave it to Ruff who cleaned his bowl in one long slurpy lick. That was the first time I’d seen a dog eating mangos and bananas. How can a dog tell you what it wants? Obviously it can't so you give it what you eat, and if your dog likes it you know its ok to give them what you eat. It was after meeting ruff, that I began hankering after my parents for a dog.
Dogs are such wonderful creatures and if you treat them with just a wee little bit of affection, you have made a friend for life for sure. There is so much one can learn from them, but the best trait that they possess that we humans fear possessing is unconditionality. You yell at them and they'll come back wagging their tails at you, as if you did no wrong. Some of my non dog lover friends say that unconditionality that dogs show is pathetic. But, if you have a dog at home just try this, yell at him/her and watch them come back to you. Trust me you'll be way too ashamed of yourself to have yelled at them. The second thing I love about dogs is that, they cannot talk, and yet express their feelings so explicitly. They also have their emotional radar on at all times. If ever they notice the slightest change they'll be right next to you, and the sense of relief to know that you have them next to you inexpressible. When you come back home all tired and disgruntled there is this furry bundle waiting just for you and when they come rushing at you, you just forget everything and that in itself is such a joy. They definitely lighten your baggage. They also are extremely good judge of character, and this I have learnt from experience. So having a canine pet in your house is probably the best thing that can happen to you… at least it is so for me.

Saturday, July 12, 2008

A Furry Tale



It's natural that people find certain insects and animals scary I don't blame them. I wasn't, but what made me more compassionate towards them was Ruskin Bond he truly manages to drive all your fears of all creepy crawlies away. There is one story of his where he be friends a squirrel and I'd always wanted a squirrel for a pet, when I say a pet I don't mean anything that would include a cage but just enough friendship so that the squirrel would be trusting enough to come and take some treats from me. It didn't seem like a possibility, no amount of sitting still under a tree, or ground nuts scattered around the base of the tree to lure the furry creatures worked. Then one day when I was just about to go to school I saw this little thing on our drive way and when I first looked at it I thought it was a baby rat, on closer inspection I realised it was a baby squirrel! It was being preyed on by red ants, my friend and I got rid of the ants and put the little thing in a box a layer of cotton to keep it comfy. Now my friend and I had no idea as to what we were to do next we couldn't just leave it so we took it school with us and as was expected many voiced there concern and some came up with excellent ideas of how to feed it and get it healthy. On my way home i got a syringe and once I reached I fed the little thing diluted milk. It fortunately drank it. Baby squirrels are so soft and cute and this one had fallen from a height, and being a baby it naturally was very delicate, and I'm sure it was definitely injured. But I decided not to dwell much on what would happen, so again in the evening I fed it. Later when I checked on it, there was no movement and so I touched it and it did not move at all.
It saddened me so much, I didn't even get to know the blessed thing, but what little I did get to know I'd liked. I Dug it a little grave under a coconut tree and laid it to rest.( I hoped the other squirrel members would come pay their respects to it) But since that day I only used to leave some nuts scattered under trees and not wait around for any of them. Knowing that they ate it was enough. Such brief attachments would cause so much grief was something I hadn't anticipated.

Wednesday, July 2, 2008

The Wimp, The Roach Stars and a MURDER.

It was yet another boring day in college, with nothing much happening around us except for the usual chattering, clackclacking and bakbaking. For some reason I was extremely quiet that day till my friend came rushing into my class telling me she'd spotted a roach and wanted me to catch it. Something is better than nothing, so I went and caught the roach. Now it was my friend the roach and me. Then we saw our real prey walking towards us. Lets call him The Wimp. The wimp always has a happy smile on his face, and a nice guy in general but definitely lives up to his name. He's scared of looking at cockroaches! This was our fun time and I showed him my prisoner and he started running. He pretty much understood that I intended to set the roach on him and so began the chase my friend and I in pursuit of The Wimp. Finally I decided to just wait outside his class, the guy had to enter it at some point of time. By this time the roach was in my friends hand and when I saw the wimp approach the class I decided to hide and in he walked, right on cue into the trap. BOO! said I,the guy was so startled he just lost his balance and fell back hard on a bench. CRACK! It was an astonishingly loud noise. Everybody turned to look at me and I knew it was time I retreated to my own class. Yelling my apologies to the wimp I turned to escape, when came The Wimp's friend and said, "Hey, Show me the cockroach." By this time I'd turned into a meek mouse and was just about to show The Wimp's friend the roach when he took my hand and clasped it real hard. Crack!( This time a mild one, like an egg shell cracking) The next thing I know my hand is all damp I opened my palm and on it lay the slain roach. For no fault of its, it had been murdered by The Wimp's friend. The wimp was happy that yet another roach had been wiped away from the surface of this earth. Sadists! A sad day for the roach community:(

Tuesday, June 17, 2008

The Fringe Benefits of Failure, and the Importance of Imagination

Harvard University Commencement Address
J.K. Rowling

Copyright June 2008
As prepared for delivery


President Faust, members of the Harvard Corporation and the Board of Overseers, members of the faculty, proud parents, and, above all, graduates,
The first thing I would like to say is 'thank you.' Not only has Harvard given me an extraordinary honour, but the weeks of fear and nausea I've experienced at the thought of giving this commencement address have made me lose weight. A win-win situation! Now all I have to do is take deep breaths, squint at the red banners and fool myself into believing I am at the world's best-educated Harry Potter convention.
Delivering a commencement address is a great responsibility; or so I thought until I cast my mind back to my own graduation. The commencement speaker that day was the distinguished British philosopher Baroness Mary Warnock. Reflecting on her speech has helped me enormously in writing this one, because it turns out that I can't remember a single word she said. This liberating discovery enables me to proceed without any fear that I might inadvertently influence you to abandon promising careers in business, law or politics for the giddy delights of becoming a gay wizard. You see? If all you remember in years to come is the 'gay wizard' joke, I've still come out ahead of Baroness Mary Warnock. Achievable goals: the first step towards personal improvement.
Actually, I have wracked my mind and heart for what I ought to say to you today. I have asked myself what I wish I had known at my own graduation, and what important lessons I have learned in the 21 years that has expired between that day and this.
I have come up with two answers. On this wonderful day when we are gathered together to celebrate your academic success, I have decided to talk to you about the benefits of failure. And as you stand on the threshold of what is sometimes called 'real life', I want to extol the crucial importance of imagination. These might seem quixotic or paradoxical choices, but please bear with me.
Looking back at the 21-year-old that I was at graduation, is a slightly uncomfortable experience for the 42-year-old that she has become. Half my lifetime ago, I was striking an uneasy balance between the ambition I had for myself, and what those closest to me expected of me.
I was convinced that the only thing I wanted to do, ever, was to write novels. However, my parents, both of whom came from impoverished backgrounds and neither of whom had been to college, took the view that my overactive imagination was an amusing personal quirk that could never pay a mortgage, or secure a pension.
They had hoped that I would take a vocational degree; I wanted to study English Literature. A compromise was reached that in retrospect satisfied nobody, and I went up to study Modern Languages. Hardly had my parents' car rounded the corner at the end of the road than I ditched German and scuttled off down the Classics corridor. I cannot remember telling my parents that I was studying Classics; they might well have found out for the first time on graduation day. Of all subjects on this planet, I think they would have been hard put to name one less useful than Greek mythology when it came to securing the keys to an executive bathroom.
I would like to make it clear, in parenthesis, that I do not blame my parents for their point of view. There is an expiry date on blaming your parents for steering you in the wrong direction; the moment you are old enough to take the wheel, responsibility lies with you. What is more, I cannot criticise my parents for hoping that I would never experience poverty. They had been poor themselves, and I have since been poor, and I quite agree with them that it is not an ennobling experience. Poverty entails fear, and stress, and sometimes depression; it means a thousand petty humiliations and hardships. Climbing out of poverty by your own efforts, that is indeed something on which to pride yourself, but poverty itself is romanticised only by fools.
What I feared most for myself at your age was not poverty, but failure. At your age, in spite of a distinct lack of motivation at university, where I had spent far too long in the coffee bar writing stories, and far too little time at lectures, I had a knack for passing examinations, and that, for years, had been the measure of success in my life and that of my peers. I am not dull enough to suppose that because you are young, gifted and well-educated, you have never known hardship or heartbreak. Talent and intelligence never yet inoculated anyone against the caprice of the Fates, and I do not for a moment suppose that everyone here has enjoyed an existence of unruffled privilege and contentment. However, the fact that you are graduating from Harvard suggests that you are not very well-acquainted with failure. You might be driven by a fear of failure quite as much as a desire for success. Indeed, your conception of failure might not be too far from the average person's idea of success, so high have you already flown academically.
Ultimately, we all have to decide for ourselves what constitutes failure, but the world is quite eager to give you a set of criteria if you let it. So I think it fair to say that by any conventional measure, a mere seven years after my graduation day, I had failed on an epic scale. An exceptionally short-lived marriage had imploded, and I was jobless, a lone parent, and as poor as it is possible to be in modern Britain, without being homeless. The fears my parents had had for me, and that I had had for myself, had both come to pass, and by every usual standard, I was the biggest failure I knew.
Now, I am not going to stand here and tell you that failure is fun. That period of my life was a dark one, and I had no idea that there was going to be what the press has since represented as a kind of fairy tale resolution. I had no idea how far the tunnel extended, and for a long time, any light at the end of it was a hope rather than a reality.
So why do I talk about the benefits of failure? Simply because failure meant a stripping away of the inessential. I stopped pretending to myself that I was anything other than what I was, and began to direct all my energy into finishing the only work that mattered to me. Had I really succeeded at anything else, I might never have found the determination to succeed in the one arena I believed I truly belonged. I was set free, because my greatest fear had already been realised, and I was still alive, and I still had a daughter whom I adored, and I had an old typewriter and a big idea. And so rock bottom became the solid foundation on which I rebuilt my life.
You might never fail on the scale I did, but some failure in life is inevitable. It is impossible to live without failing at something, unless you live so cautiously that you might as well not have lived at all – in which case, you fail by default.
Failure gave me an inner security that I had never attained by passing examinations. Failure taught me things about myself that I could have learned no other way. I discovered that I had a strong will, and more discipline than I had suspected; I also found out that I had friends whose value was truly above rubies.
The knowledge that you have emerged wiser and stronger from setbacks means that you are, ever after, secure in your ability to survive. You will never truly know yourself, or the strength of your relationships, until both have been tested by adversity. Such knowledge is a true gift, for all that it is painfully won, and it has been worth more to me than any qualification I ever earned.
Given a time machine or a Time Turner, I would tell my 21-year-old self that personal happiness lies in knowing that life is not a check-list of acquisition or achievement. Your qualifications, your CV, are not your life, though you will meet many people of my age and older who confuse the two. Life is difficult, and complicated, and beyond anyone's total control, and the humility to know that will enable you to survive its vicissitudes.
You might think that I chose my second theme, the importance of imagination, because of the part it played in rebuilding my life, but that is not wholly so. Though I will defend the value of bedtime stories to my last gasp, I have learned to value imagination in a much broader sense. Imagination is not only the uniquely human capacity to envision that which is not, and therefore the fount of all invention and innovation.
In its arguably most transformative and revelatory capacity, it is the power that enables us to empathise with humans whose experiences we have never shared. One of the greatest formative experiences of my life preceded Harry Potter, though it informed much of what I subsequently wrote in those books. This revelation came in the form of one of my earliest day jobs. Though I was sloping off to write stories during my lunch hours, I paid the rent in my early 20s by working in the research department at Amnesty International's headquarters in London.
There in my little office I read hastily scribbled letters smuggled out of totalitarian regimes by men and women who were risking imprisonment to inform the outside world of what was happening to them. I saw photographs of those who had disappeared without trace, sent to Amnesty by their desperate families and friends. I read the testimony of torture victims and saw pictures of their injuries. I opened handwritten, eye-witness accounts of summary trials and executions, of kidnappings and rapes.
Many of my co-workers were ex-political prisoners, people who had been displaced from their homes, or fled into exile, because they had the temerity to think independently of their government. Visitors to our office included those who had come to give information, or to try and find out what had happened to those they had been forced to leave behind. I shall never forget the African torture victim, a young man no older than I was at the time, who had become mentally ill after all he had endured in his homeland. He trembled uncontrollably as he spoke into a video camera about the brutality inflicted upon him. He was a foot taller than I was, and seemed as fragile as a child.
I was given the job of escorting him to the Underground Station afterwards, and this man whose life had been shattered by cruelty took my hand with exquisite courtesy, and wished me future happiness.And as long as I live I shall remember walking along an empty corridor and suddenly hearing, from behind a closed door, a scream of pain and horror such as I have never heard since. The door opened, and the researcher poked out her head and told me to run and make a hot drink for the young man sitting with her. She had just given him the news that in retaliation for his own outspokenness against his country's regime, his mother had been seized and executed.
Every day of my working week in my early 20s I was reminded how incredibly fortunate I was, to live in a country with a democratically elected government, where legal representation and a public trial were the rights of everyone. Every day, I saw more evidence about the evils humankind will inflict on their fellow humans, to gain or maintain power. I began to have nightmares, literal nightmares, about some of the things I saw, heard and read.
And yet I also learned more about human goodness at Amnesty International than I had ever known before.
Amnesty mobilises thousands of people who have never been tortured or imprisoned for their beliefs to act on behalf of those who have. The power of human empathy, leading to collective action, saves lives, and frees prisoners. Ordinary people, whose personal well-being and security are assured, join together in huge numbers to save people they do not know, and will never meet. My small participation in that process was one of the most humbling and inspiring experiences of my life.
Unlike any other creature on this planet, humans can learn and understand, without having experienced. They can think themselves into other people's minds, imagine themselves into other people's places. Of course, this is a power, like my brand of fictional magic, that is morally neutral. One might use such an ability to manipulate, or control, just as much as to understand or sympathise. And many prefer not to exercise their imaginations at all. They choose to remain comfortably within the bounds of their own experience, never troubling to wonder how it would feel to have been born other than they are. They can refuse to hear screams or to peer inside cages; they can close their minds and hearts to any suffering that does not touch them personally; they can refuse to know. I might be tempted to envy people who can live that way, except that I do not think they have any fewer nightmares than I do. Choosing to live in narrow spaces can lead to a form of mental agoraphobia, and that brings its own terrors. I think the wilfully unimaginative see more monsters. They are often more afraid.
What is more, those who choose not to empathise may enable real monsters. For without ever committing an act of outright evil ourselves, we collude with it, through our own apathy. One of the many things I learned at the end of that Classics corridor down which I ventured at the age of 18, in search of something I could not then define, was this, written by the Greek author Plutarch: What we achieve inwardly will change outer reality.
That is an astonishing statement and yet proven a thousand times every day of our lives. It expresses, in part, our inescapable connection with the outside world, the fact that we touch other people's lives simply by existing.
But how much more are you, Harvard graduates of 2008, likely to touch other people's lives? Your intelligence, your capacity for hard work, the education you have earned and received, give you unique status, and unique responsibilities. Even your nationality sets you apart. The great majority of you belong to the world's only remaining superpower. The way you vote, the way you live, the way you protest, the pressure you bring to bear on your government, has an impact way beyond your borders. That is your privilege, and your burden.
If you choose to use your status and influence to raise your voice on behalf of those who have no voice; if you choose to identify not only with the powerful, but with the powerless; if you retain the ability to imagine yourself into the lives of those who do not have your advantages, then it will not only be your proud families who celebrate your existence, but thousands and millions of people whose reality you have helped transform for the better. We do not need magic to change the world, we carry all the power we need inside ourselves already: we have the power to imagine better.
I am nearly finished. I have one last hope for you, which is something that I already had at 21. The friends with whom I sat on graduation day have been my friends for life. They are my children's godparents, the people to whom I've been able to turn in times of trouble, friends who have been kind enough not to sue me when I've used their names for Death Eaters. At our graduation we were bound by enormous affection, by our shared experience of a time that could never come again, and, of course, by the knowledge that we held certain photographic evidence that would be exceptionally valuable if any of us ran for Prime Minister.
So today, I can wish you nothing better than similar friendships. And tomorrow, I hope that even if you remember not a single word of mine, you remember those of Seneca, another of those old Romans I met when I fled down the Classics corridor, in retreat from career ladders, in search of ancient wisdom:
As a tale, so is life: not how long it is, but how good it is, is what matters.
I wish you all very good lives.
Thank you very much.